Wouldn't it be nice if life always played by our rules? When we want (or feel like we need) something, it automatically manifests. If we could wish, pray, or work hard enough and get what we're looking for.
Unfortunately that's not how life works. Sometimes no matter how many wishes we make, no matter how much we pray and plead, and no matter how hard we work for something, it isn't meant to be.
I'm dealing with that right now. Wanting and working for something so hard and seeing the likelihood of its fruition slip away. It hurts. It's frustrating. It makes me angry. It makes me sad. It's tempting to let it run into all aspects of my life.
But, as a person of faith, I must remember that I am not all knowing. I can't predict the future. As much as I think I do, I don't know what my family and I need. Maybe sometimes we have to let things slip away for something better to come. Maybe sometimes when we don't get what we want, we are getting what we truly need instead. Maybe I'll look back with gratitude that life didn't play by my rules.
I may never know, but I have to find peace and contentment with where I am today. Celebrating the times life has played by my rules, and gracefully accepting the times it hasn't.