As my due date approaches, I have moments of fearing labor. I mostly started to get scared after a really bad experience with hemorrhoids this past weekend. It made me feel like there is so much in this process that my body has struggled with and the process of childbirth will be even more strenuous. I don't know what to expect, but there is a fear that my body and I won't be able to handle labor, that recovery will be challenging, and that my pain may not subside (or even get worse) after birth.
As easy as it is for me to get wrapped up in these fears and follow the rabbit trail down a trail of worry, I am aiming to calm myself and trust in my baby, my body, myself, and my God. I don't know what will happen. I don't know what to expect. I don't know, and worry won't change my outcome, other than making the process more daunting. So, I'm writing this prayer to help me. To hand my fears over to God and have faith that everything will be okay--more than okay, wonderful.
Please watch over Henry and me over these next few days, weeks, and months. Give me strength and courage to finish my pregnancy. Help me to trust that you have my back and that you will not leave my side. Please give me confidence and calm as I approach childbirth. Help guide me and give me the wisdom to know what to do. Please keep Henry and me safe. Let my mind be at ease and my heart be calm. Help me to trust this process, trust my doctors and nurses, and trust in myself. Please provide me with the assurance that I am capable and that you equipped me with everything that I need to safely bring Henry into this world. Help me have confidence in my ability to birth him and to be his mother. Please ease my fears and calm my spirit. Let me be patient and enjoy the remainder of my pregnancy, however long that may be. Please help me have a safe and easy delivery and a quick and pain free recovery. Let me cherish every moment with my son and with Derek as we become a new family together.
I trust you, I love you, and I thank you for blessing me so immensely. In your glorious name I pray, Amen.